kata hati

hati aku bisu, sentiasa bisu.
aku tidak mahu ia terjerit, terlolong..
meminta-minta, menagih dan merayu.
aku lebih rela ia diam membisu.

sebenarnya ku mahukan hati aku ini berkata-kata.
sebenar-benar kata tentang dunia.
tentang dunia aku dan dunia dia.
tentang sakit dan sengsara.
tentang neraka.

aku membiarkan gundah dan perit.
terdiam dalam hati.
kerna hati ku ini neraka.
neraka yang membahagiakan.
bahagia dunia aku dan dia.

Kahlil Gibran on Love

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

*i love kahlil gibran, his words just captivating me..
on all things...life, love, etc.

L.O.M.O

its been quite a while since i know lomography. and its seems quite long time too i keep the dreamin of havin a lomocamera as a dream. but the waitin and dreaming is finally over. in just one night, i made an order for action sampler flash. this is the tool of magic that will be coming into my life..just like their phase "dont think, just shoot", my mind is also react as the same as "dont think, just buy!".. but i wouldnt regret the single sen that i use to buy the camera. coz it is a magic, a magic of lomograpic lover!..

serangan di pagi hari

Asthma is a chronic medical condition. It has been defined as a common chronic disorder of the airways that is complex and characterized by variable and recurring symptoms, airflow obstruction, bronchial hyperresponsivenes, and an underlying inflammation.

these is the facts. the example of what is the picture in my body when the attacks happens. the meaning of the sickness that i have and had to go through everyday for the last 22 years and coming. but the causes of these sickness comes mainly and projected by myself. as it feels like i wanted to be attack. and so the main causes = smoking cigarettes.

i barely can stand the effect when the attack happen. just like today. but i cannot stop smoking. so the attack cannot stop too. its like both of them has been synchronize. so the conclusion is...
i am not addicted to cigarette or nikotine, but i am addicted to an asthma attack.
and so i am addicted to death.

semangat keMANUTDan

Sedang2 aku membelek-belek membelek-belek shuratkabarr pada satu hari aku terbaca berita yang cukup gempar dan menyayat hati.

"Penyokong Barcelona parah ditetak"..

Rasanya tdiak perlu dinyatakn manusia itu diperlakukan oleh sapa dan mengapa. Cukuplah untuk mengetahui bahawa keparahan beliau disebabkan ke'fanatik'an golongan manusia yang laen yang tidak boleh menerima kekalahan.

kepada yang redha seperti saya, patut berbangga kerna dapat bersabar dari menambah mangsa tetakkan dari huspital-huspital di negara ini.

p/s; GLORY2 man utd..