two.thousands.ten

at the eve of new year.

i am wondering what i've been achieve this year.

the good and the bad.

the greatness and the sadness.

my life still goes in circle.

changes is needed.

i am hoping it for the year of 2010.

wishing the coming year will be much colourful and enjoyable.

~same goes to everyone~

internship

Officially, ive been accepted to do my intern at MFA (Malaysia Franchise Association). I am still in shock, knowing that i will not attending class, but working starting next month. I dont have the experience in working at the office. Seems life would be difficult after this.

The fun of staying up late until early morning, lepaking at mamak, chillin and driving without pupose...all of that fun gonna be hard to get after this.

Hope the future housemate would be fun, even act they are my hometown buddy.

~wearing formal attire everyday..dat is suck!

s.i.a.p

done.finish.completed.

that's all that can be said to my study.

just another 4month of internship.

and all the 4years studying would be history.

i am really gonna miss my student life after this.

duh.

sakit

demam.aku jarang demam.tetapi bila demam aku akan hadapi dengan teruk skali.demam yg bercampur batuk,selsema,asma dan pening.mungkin sebab itu aku jarang terkena.

demam bagaikan mahu bercampur dengan segala kaum kerabatnya dan kemudian menjangkiti aku.rasanya memang teruk sekali.ketika demam ini aku baru menyesal menghisap rokok, saja terkena hujan dan tidak menjaga kesihatan.ku harap selepas memakan ubat ini, akan sembuh segalanya.InsyaAllah.

*jarang aku menulis begini.

melayu itu bangsaku.

mungkinkah lebih baik begini?

duh.

life's sucks man.

you cant always got what you want.

and you cant always have what you need.

disember

satu bulan meuju ke alam 23.

bulan terakhir ku di unisel.

bulan terakhir ku juga sebelum ke arah pekerjaan.

berharap tahun 2010 akan memberi lebih kebahagiaan utk aku.

untuk hati aku.untuk family aku.

aku.dan.sesal

aku tak pernah serik.aku juga tidak pernah puas.

kenakalan tidak selalunya keseronokan.

intipati hidup aku hanyalah dunia.

aku ingin merasai semuanya.

jadi tinggalkan syurga.tinggalkan agama.

sahabatkan syaitan.akulah durjana.

sedarkan aku.

sujudkan aku.rukukkan aku.

semoga pintu taubat masih terbuka untukku.

.

progress

when the progress is being done, you can just sit back and think ahead.

so that is what i'm doing right now.b'coz;

project paper=siap

assignment=all is done

test=suda lepas

and enjoy the next ride, because the ride of final exam is waiting..next...

i am me

"You are so much more than you can see. You are so much more than you think you are. You are so much more than you have heard about yourself."

p/s:- so, just be yourself.

responsibility

aku seorang abang. jadi abang mempunyai tanggungjawab terhadap adik-adiknya.aku mempunyai tiga orang adik perempuan.sungguh besar tanggungjawab itu.jadi antara tanggungjawab aku ketika ketiadaan ibu bapa ku adalah-

a) membelikan top up
b) membelikan makanan

itu saja yang aku tau dan aku lakukan.yang lain adalah tanggungjawab mereka sendiri.
sememangnya aku tidak tahu tanggungjawab aku.
sememangnya aku pemalas.
sememangnya aku tidak bertanggungjawab.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Sleeping too much

You may find that you often fall asleep during the day, although you want to stay awake. The commonest reason is lack of sleep at night. People sometimes fall asleep as a way of escaping from the pressures of everyday life. However, if this goes on for more than a few days, it may be caused by a physical illness of some sort. This could be diabetes, a viral infection, or a thyroid problem.

There are also two unusual conditions that make people sleep too much.

Narcolepsy

A person with narcolepsy will suffer sudden and uncontrollable attacks of sleepiness in the daytime, sometimes in public. They may feel as though they can't move their body and may see or hear strange things as they are falling asleep. They may also have the alarming experience of suddenly collapsing when they are angry, laughing or excited.

Sleep Apnea

The main symptom is loud snoring. Of course, this may seem to be more of a problem for the person sharing the bed than the person snoring! However, Sleep Apnea can be a serious condition. The sufferer not only snores loudly, but also stops breathing for short periods of time during the night. Every time this happens, they wake for a short time before falling off to sleep again. Understandably, they feel tired the next day. It is more common in older people and in those who are overweight.

*narcolepsy=mungkin akan terjadi pada aku nnt.

racist

aku bangun awal arini.
setelah dpat makan nasi lemak ayam peha besa dan kekenyangan, aku melepak2 sambil menunggu waktu tepat pkul 2 utk ke kelas strategic management.
oh, ya..pd kul1030 sblum 2 aku mengantar laptop ku ke kedai komputer dengan tujuan untuk meng'format' laptop.situasi di kedai itu.

macha~oh, u..kenape dengan laptop, rosak lg ke?..
aku~ha'a, kene virus lg..
macha~laptop pe ya, acer?
aku~bukan, compaq..

setelah makhluk itu mbuka laptop ku, die berkata..
macha~eyh, cmna file ni boleh hilang, virus la ni..
aku~itula, so kene format la..format c je kan?..
macha~oke2..i maw offer u..antivirus avira..campur sama format, i give u 90..ok?

aku berfikir sejenak..duet xde.
aku~bos, xpela, next time la i amek ori nye antivirus 2..
macha~oke, no prob..
aku~bile eyh bole siap, dalam petang ni bole?..
macha~bole2, tp petang dlam kul7,8 la er..
aku~aiseh..oke2 la..

n selepas itu aku beredar n blik ke uma swe ku.
dari kul2-745pm aku di kelas..

odw blik, aku terus singgah ke kedai komputer itu..
aku~boss, suda siap ke?..
macha~hello, u pnye laptop sy suda anta kl..
aku~erk?..kate ptg bole siap..
macha~u pnye laptop display xde..arini saja u pnye laptop ke7 mcam itu.
aku~aiseh..camna nie..bile bole siap?
macha~i try la, nt i call u k..
aku~oke2 la..

BULLLLSHIIITTTT!!!...
p***nya macha. aku mati2 ingat abes klas aku bole sambung buat keje.
now nga stuck ngan acer nauzubillah yg xle buat pape ni..
TEKANAN beb!..

+!@#&*&(*+)_@&$%^#$@#$@$**&)...
*(maki-makian yang akan merosakkan satu malaysia)

sumpah aku xkan pegi anta kt kedai 2 lg.
pagi cakap lain ptg cakap lain.
cam haram.

malas

pernahkah anda malas?
tidak mahu membuat apa-apa selain tido, makan dan online?
saya juga mempunyai tabiat malas begitu.
cuma saya setiap hari malas.

terima kasih malas!

smoke=cool

i knoe dat most guy think that smoking is cool.
then i pretty sure this guy is the coolest guy in the whole world.
duh, i wouldnt do it if i were him.

persoalan

jika dalam setiap tiga orang akan ada seorang jurugambar, dan seorang lagi adalah peminat gambar, dan seorang lagi adalah seakan meminati, di manakah rasionalnya?..

adakah semua orang mempunyai potensi?
adakah semua orang mempunyai bakat?
adakah semua orang sama jika begitu?

jadi adalah betul untuk aku mengundurkan diri seeloknya.

aku minat seni.aku juga minat gambar.aku juga minat musik.
cukuplah jika aku seorang yang tau.

m.i.s.s.i.n.g m e r e k a

i hope both of them is healthy+happy there.
to get to do what is a must for ur religion is awesome.
and haj is a true ambition for them.
wanted to do by them since i was still a child.

and i will pray for them everyday.
coz i am missing mak n ayah.
i really do.

half true.

sorry for her.i am guilty.

.dream.

i always have a dream.dreaming..
a dream world where wealth is love.
a dream world where ambition is a dream.
a dream world where love is based on heart.
i wish dat i could have a dream world where everything is like a dream...

lomo again!..

while ive been 'bosanin' on9, ive got to check back lomokids.shop.
a blog from lomokids that selling lomo cameras.
its been awhile since the last time i check the blog.
when i surfing that site, its feel like ive been 'windowshoppinin',
choosing the cam that i wanted, the ke'anak2kan' feel of wanting sumthing..
and after for 5sec, i realised. i must have mor lomocams!..

this is 'mimpi-mipi indah lomo'oleh ku..
1. diana f+ el toro
2. holga 120cfn multicolor
3. fisheye camera

*wish dat santa would come 2my house dis chritmas..:p

bertuah

"hampir 3ribu mangsa gempa bumi Padang mungkin terperangkap: Jakarta"
"mangsa tsunami Samoa terus dicari"

ujian tuhan.dugaan hebat untuk manusia pabila ditimpa malapetaka begini.
tsunami, gempa bumi, tanah runtuh, banjir besar.
sayu melihat mereka yang kehilangan.harta, kasih, sayang.
sesungguhnya tanah airku ini maha bertuah.jauh dari ditimpa bencana sebegitu rupa.

akan tetapi...Ya Allah, beginikah petanda pengakhiran duniawi?..

pabila perbuatan melebihi had

ship happen. so it does.apabila perut di isi dengan rendang+lemang+nasi lemak+bubur+keropok+rokok+shisha berperisa 'sunrise'. akibatnya adalah seperti di atas.

tiada pengajaran di dalam cerita ini.cuma bismillah la sebelum makan.

eeeeid la.

selamat.selamat.selamat.
selamat hari raya.

raya ini aku busan.kerna?..

duet raya=tiada
duet raya=none
duet raya=illek

aku missskinnn!!!!...

p.u.a.s.a

aku manusia.aku banyak pilihan.
dunia atau syurga atau neraka.
sabar itu separuh daripada iman.
bagaimana secalit iman pun tiada.
sesungguhnya.
memang sudah banyak kali aku tak berpuasa.

p/s: jangan tiru macam sy.

tunggang bangang

mode : tekanan

mind : kosong yang teramat

body : lemau + malas + ngantok
soul : terasa amat kafir

kesimpulan = rase cam na geng ngan babi

the perhentian

a trip that cannot be forgotten. from the moment i arrive till the moment i depart. such a beautiful island. its like the masterful of God's creation. the beach, the sea and the island itself kinda bring a peaceful feel and mood into my mind and soul.
there's a lot of things going on there. its a shame that the 'late' pokku past away in that kind kind of situation. but it also remind me that death cannot be predicted.
i enjoy all the things that i done there, especially snorkling. although i only get the chance to do it only a few times n in a short time, but its still mesmerizing.

i hpe that one day i would come to the perhentian island again, and in that second time i will enjoy it till the last!..

e.x.a.m.i.n.at.i.o.n

otak ku sudah tidak berfungsi. aku perlukan pembakar, supaya ia boleh menjadi seperti otak-otak.

lembut dan sedap dimakan.penuh degan sumber inspirasi.

aku perlukan ia berfungsi.
wahai otak ku.
berfungsi lah.

kata hati

hati aku bisu, sentiasa bisu.
aku tidak mahu ia terjerit, terlolong..
meminta-minta, menagih dan merayu.
aku lebih rela ia diam membisu.

sebenarnya ku mahukan hati aku ini berkata-kata.
sebenar-benar kata tentang dunia.
tentang dunia aku dan dunia dia.
tentang sakit dan sengsara.
tentang neraka.

aku membiarkan gundah dan perit.
terdiam dalam hati.
kerna hati ku ini neraka.
neraka yang membahagiakan.
bahagia dunia aku dan dia.

Kahlil Gibran on Love

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

*i love kahlil gibran, his words just captivating me..
on all things...life, love, etc.

L.O.M.O

its been quite a while since i know lomography. and its seems quite long time too i keep the dreamin of havin a lomocamera as a dream. but the waitin and dreaming is finally over. in just one night, i made an order for action sampler flash. this is the tool of magic that will be coming into my life..just like their phase "dont think, just shoot", my mind is also react as the same as "dont think, just buy!".. but i wouldnt regret the single sen that i use to buy the camera. coz it is a magic, a magic of lomograpic lover!..

serangan di pagi hari

Asthma is a chronic medical condition. It has been defined as a common chronic disorder of the airways that is complex and characterized by variable and recurring symptoms, airflow obstruction, bronchial hyperresponsivenes, and an underlying inflammation.

these is the facts. the example of what is the picture in my body when the attacks happens. the meaning of the sickness that i have and had to go through everyday for the last 22 years and coming. but the causes of these sickness comes mainly and projected by myself. as it feels like i wanted to be attack. and so the main causes = smoking cigarettes.

i barely can stand the effect when the attack happen. just like today. but i cannot stop smoking. so the attack cannot stop too. its like both of them has been synchronize. so the conclusion is...
i am not addicted to cigarette or nikotine, but i am addicted to an asthma attack.
and so i am addicted to death.

semangat keMANUTDan

Sedang2 aku membelek-belek membelek-belek shuratkabarr pada satu hari aku terbaca berita yang cukup gempar dan menyayat hati.

"Penyokong Barcelona parah ditetak"..

Rasanya tdiak perlu dinyatakn manusia itu diperlakukan oleh sapa dan mengapa. Cukuplah untuk mengetahui bahawa keparahan beliau disebabkan ke'fanatik'an golongan manusia yang laen yang tidak boleh menerima kekalahan.

kepada yang redha seperti saya, patut berbangga kerna dapat bersabar dari menambah mangsa tetakkan dari huspital-huspital di negara ini.

p/s; GLORY2 man utd..

i am nothing

early this year i got rejected.
then last month i rejected others.
its awkward how life can turn around so quickly.
then theres her.
suddenly appear wihout notice.
maybe she is just a passerby.
comin through my heart.
mybe that's will things turn out to be.
mybe bcoz i am hollow.
i am nothing.

trip to pasar karat ipoh.

theres alot of hope i put for this place, the expectation that this is the heaven for a lomography camera hunter.the trip is fun, enjoyable. from start to finish. except in the middle.

it is the the true intention of this trip that making me sick. the regrets of me to go all the way there is so great that i lost all my consciousness and happiness instantly. the impact so great that i feel like the lost of hope of living in dreams.

i do swear that i would not go there anymore.
ipoh SUCKS!!...

masa-masa

1 minggu = 7 hari = 68 jam.

sungguh cepat masa berlalu.
rase seperti baru kelmarin aku ke tadika.
seperti baru semalam aku belajar menaiki basikal.

sudah 22tahun aku hidup di dunia ni.
tapi dirasakan seperti baru 22hari.
mungkin 22miggu lagi aku di dunia.
mungkin juga 22tahun.

oh tuhan.
memang aku sudah lalai.

diri aku.

aku sensitif. kadang-kala.
aku sangat suka mencarut.
aku juga suka mengarut.

skarang aku tak mengikut gerak hati.
bukan seperti dulu.
aku sudah banyak berubah.
mungkin tak ramai yang tau.
rahsia yang perlu disimpan.
mungkin skarang aku sudah menjadi setan.